Right now, at this very moment, I am enjoying the sound of nothing but my fingers hitting the keys on my keyboard. My house is completely silent for the first time in four days. Let me correct myself - I have time to myself for the first time in four days. A girlfriend of mine came to stay with us for a few days, which is absolutely fine, but I've come to discover that having new (un-related) people in my house throws off my schedule more than I would care to admit. We were constantly busy with driving kids to soccer and baseball, picking them up from friend's houses, collecting rent at our apartment complex, buying groceries and returning clothes that just didn't quite fit correctly ... and that's not even half of it! The four days were quite busy - so busy that I did not have one day this week where I stayed in Mound all day. To be frank, I am exhausted!
My hubby is out of town on a camping trip with my two brothers, Jeremy and Tory, and my brother-in-law, Martin. This is Tory's birthday gift - he requested a guy's weekend at the Badlands. I'm more than okay with this. By no means am I saying that I want my husband to be gone, but I fully understand the necessity of taking weekends away. For that reason, my husband being gone does not bother me. The one thing I have missed in the midst of all of the crazy going on around me this week is any opportunity to just be still. I had late nights and early mornings all week long - and if you know me at all, you know that is NOT like me at all. Yes, I get up early with my kids, but I also go to bed early with my kids. Somehow, 9:30 has become my preferred bedtime! So, that being said, I was running on less-than-usual sleep and doing more-than-usual errands. Throw on top of that a case of head lice in two of my three boys (and haircuts for all of them - two of them shaved completely!) and it has been an insane week! Side note: by no means am I complaining about this - I truly am reflecting and enjoying thoughts of this week.
That's where I've been this week and now ----- now I sit here, listening to the silence, and the one thing that struck me is that I have not once in this past week taken time to truly be still before God. I am certainly one of those people who walks through my entire day talking to God, I really don't know how I would get through weeks like this if I wasn't, but I have not made time to intimately sit down and pour out my heart to Him, and to wait upon Him and listen for His voice. During my normal schedule, I often will use Colin's naptime as the time for me to spend one-on-one, no interruptions, completely intimate time with the Lord. Being the fact that this week has been so out-of-whack, I'm realizing that my soul craves that refreshing time of being with it's very Lover.
So now, as my children sleep and as my husband is likely sitting around a campfire with the guys, now my house is silent. Now it's time for my date with God.
Father, I am sorry I have waited so long.