This morning has been a crazy one already. I got up early and put a French Toast Bake in the oven, spent some quality time with my hubby while that was baking. I ate said French Toast Bake with my family 40 minutes later and realized it was disgusting. Gave permission to all family members to throw the nasty bake in the garbage disposal. Showered and got ready. Watched my husband try to repair our Wii. Searched online for diagrams as to HOW to reassemble said Wii. Failed to figure it out. Bid farewell to Monte and Iain as they headed out to winterize our boat (all the while the Wii is currently on our countertop completely disassembled and we have been given strict instructions stating "DO NOT TOUCH THIS!"). I watched the family eat lunch, and realized that I have yet to do so myself. This will happen in just a few minutes, of that I am sure. While it has been a lazy Saturday morning here, it also seems to have been an exhausting Saturday morning! Why is that? Why is it that, when your schedule finally allows for some down time and some relaxation, you actually find yourself to feel tired and run down? I just don't get it!
This afternoon (once Monte and Iain return from winterizing the boat) we are heading out to buy Halloween costumes for the boys. While I'm still not sure how I feel about trick-or-treating (this stemming from the fact that we were not allowed to trick-or-treat as children) or about Halloween in general, I'm not going to take this opportunity away from our kids as it's something they've always done. That being said, I also am not going to go out with them - My Monte gets that pleasure! I'm going to stay at home and hand out candy to the cute kids who ring our doorbell. I'm going to sit in my chair and enjoy my book and a cup of tea. I'm going to enjoy the peace and quiet that will come with an evening to myself, even if it's only for an hour or so!
On a completely different note, have you ever listened to the song "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller? If you haven't, I highly recommend it. In fact, I like it so much that I've just added it as the music on my blog. I'm not sure where I first heard the song, but I completely love it. The lyrics talk about how we need to wait on the Lord:
I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait
That song just truly strikes something within me - something that can identify with the message. Something that screams out that even though I may not have control of the circumstances in my life, while I am waiting on the Lord to provide answers, I am still serving and worshiping the Lord and pressing on to the things that He has called me to do. I feel that way a lot in my life right now - that with all of the questions that come up regarding selling our home and potentially moving to be closer to family, regarding the unknown about having more children, regarding a lot of circumstances of our every day lives - I'm feeling that I need to just press on toward a more intimate relationship with my Creator. Even though I'm waiting and the answers that I want might not be in front of me at this moment, I will still press forward toward what God is calling me to do. I will continue to trust Him that the answers I'm seeking will come in His timing and not a moment sooner. I will trust that He is in control - and that's really all that I need to know, anyway!