I have all of the answers you've been waiting for! Okay, well maybe not all of the answers, but I at least have answers to the subjects of why we've cleaned out our garage and how my appointments are going. I'll start with the latter. Last Wednesday, I had a follow up appointment with my OB. Okay, it wasn't actually my OB, it was another doctor within the same clinic. In fact, this is the third doctor I've seen thus far, but I guess as long as we're still moving forward with our progress, I can't complain about it! So, I had finished taking my prescription and had indeed received a visit from Aunt Flo. The funny thing about it is that it had been so long since I received a visit from her that I rejoiced when she came. I savored the cramps. How weird am I?! :) I guess the only thing I can say to describe it is the fact that, when you haven't had a period in nine or ten months, it's a great feeling of normalcy when you finally have one! I cherished the feeling, knowing that it's one step closer to bringing me to the day that Monte and I can have a baby. However, the fact that I got my period on this prescription did answer the question of whether or not I am ovulating, and it answered it with a big loud NO! So, since then, I have been on a prescription Clomid, which will help with the ovulation process. I go back in for another ultrasound tomorrow to determine whether or not the Clomid is having the effect it should on my uterus - and when I get the thumbs up from the doctor, I will give myself a shot of Ovidrel which will cause me to ovulate 36 hours after the shot is given. So, considering things line up correctly, we have a chance of getting pregnant after this shot. However, we also have a chance of going through this process yet again next month. At this point, it's all in God's hands - in His will and in His time.
At this point, I'm not certain how I'm feeling about all of this. Part of me thinks that I'm suppressing all of the emotions I'm feeling - entirely because I blew the emotional gasket on the phone with my mom last week and cried harder than I've cried in ages ... and I had no clue why! While it still is not something that is consuming me, I do believe I'm probably thinking about it more than I realize. I don't like how things have become so meticulous, so calculated and so timed. Yet I know that those things are necessary right now. My emotions go up and down with this, and most of the time I find myself consuming my time with my family, with my kids, with the upcoming holidays - with anything that takes my mind off of the current status of our fertility journey. Am I in denial? Possibly. I just don't really know what I'm denying :)
As always, your prayers regarding this situation are greatly appreciated!
On a much different note, you may have read that we have cleaned out the contents of our garage and are preparing for demolition. Well, as I write this, our contractor is outside removing our garage door and taking apart the few things that need to be removed before our garage is torn down. Why on earth are we doing this? Well I'm glad you asked! Monte and I have made the decision that we are going to stay put in the home we have been given. The desire to move has completely subsided, I think due to the fact that we are so particular in what we want in a home that we're finding those requests are not being met. What we want is what we already have - just with a couple more bedrooms (for guests and the pending possibility of more children). So, instead of moving, we're adding on to our home! Gone will be our current garage, replaced with a three-car garage that both of our "dinosaur killers" (also known as our SUVs) will fit in and where we can store our boat in the winter (instead of paying other people to store it in their garage!). We are adding on a guest bedroom and a guest bathroom, a home office (centrally located near our kitchen, which I have discovered is my center of gravity in our home!) and a second laundry room (because we are planning on increasing the amount of laundry we do in a week with the possibility of more children - and an additional washer and dryer will be an amazing addition to have!) which will have a Murphy Bed in it to accommodate guests. Then, above the garage we are going to put another bedroom - likely one that we may let Claire move into in the near future (as she has already requested this!) as well as a theater room - as that has been Monte's desire in our house search - to have a theater room!
All of these changes are incredibly exciting, yet incredibly busy to be happening during the holidays! On top of that I'm finishing all of our Christmas cards and beginning our Christmas baking this week! Whew - it sounds like it's going to be a crazy month!
So tell me, what are you doing to celebrate Christmas with your family?