Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Honesty

I know it's been awhile since I've blogged about anything beyond my $100 Visa Gift Card Giveaways (which, by the way, if you would like to enter in this week's contest [sponsored by Kellogg's and BlogHer] you can visit my review blog by clicking here).  I know this because my brother Jeremy recently told me that he's grown bored with my blog.  Sorry Jerm, I'll try to do better!  The catch of why I haven't blogged is truly the fact that I want my blog to be uplifting and encouraging, and lately I really haven't felt that way.  Tomorrow I will officially be 34 weeks pregnant (I do promise pictures soon!) and lately I haven't been happily pregnant, I've been uncomfortably pregnant!  Due to this fact, I have avoided writing on my blog about it.

However, after thinking about it for awhile, the one thing I really come back to is the fact that I want to be honest on my blog as well, and not to avoid blogging just because the time of life I'm in happens to be hard.  So, my fabulous blog readers, here's the truth: I'm uncomfortable.  This baby boy has found his way to my ribcage and has clung to it for dear life, causing me to be short of breath and in pain!  I spent almost four days with him positioned there before a bit of relief came yesterday, thank You God!  He's turned a bit, which feels odd as he's never been sideways in my stomach before (and it looks goofy to see him sticking out by my side!), but it is extreme relief from the tightness of having him hug my ribs!

The other thing that has been difficult is the way my body reacted to the flu shot.  You see, I am one of those people who is not in favor of vaccines.  I have not had a flu shot in years, and haven't had the flu in years, so I see no point in being vaccinated.  That being said, when I was at my OB appointment this past Thursday, my doctor stressed the "extreme importance" of me having the flu shot to ensure that my little guy also gets this vaccine.  I debated the necessity of it with the doctor for about five minutes before I finally caved and decided just to get the shot, figuring my husband would be proud of me for it (as he is NOT opposed to vaccines!).  I got the shot, all was well ... until the next morning.  Friday morning I woke up uncomfortable, completely swollen through my arms and hands and my legs and feet, dealing with hot flashes and chills, just feeling awful.  I was nauseous and had no appetite, though because I knew the baby needed food and calories, I did my best to attempt to eat and drink as much as possible.  Add to all of that the fact that my hormones were making me extremely emotional, and it was one very hard weekend!  You see, my Monte had left Friday morning to go hunting with his brother, cousin and nephews.  When he left, I was feeling alright and was certain that I could get through it on my own, which means that I insisted he still go.  About four hours after he left, I was really sad I had made that decision!  I was feeling completely miserable, I was in a lot of pain, and I was emotional.  It was a very hard day.

Thankfully, my brother and sister-in-law, Jeremy and Missy, came and picked Colin up that evening to spend the weekend with them so that I could rest.  I can't tell you how much of a relief and how much of a huge help this was - thank you so much guys!  I arranged rides for my boys to their soccer games and spent the rest of the weekend in bed, sleeping the pain away.  Sunday morning I did get up and took the older kids to church, but even that was something that required a lot of energy and took a lot out of me.

The really odd thing in all of this is the fact that my legs are very painful, and I don't know why.  If I'm standing still, my calves and ankles start to hurt after about 10 minutes (which makes getting ready quite difficult!).  It almost feels as if I have just done an excruciating workout and my muscles are reacting to that.  I called my doctor and have an appointment to get that checked out today, which is a good thing.  Please keep this situation in your prayers, as there are very few things I can truly do without feeling this pain in my legs - and that makes being a stay-at-home mom a very difficult thing!

So, these are the reasons why I haven't blogged, because right now my pregnancy seems to be hard, and I don't want to complain about it.  Hopefully there will be some light to shine on this blog soon!  Jeremy - the offer still stands ... you write something up and I will happily feature you as my guest blogger! :)

Praying that you all are filled with blessings this week ....

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