Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Why Have I Not Been Blogging?

e⋅mo⋅tion⋅al [i-moh-shuh-nl]
1. pertaining to or involving emotion or the emotions.
2. subject to or easily affected by emotion.
3. appealing to the emotions.
4. showing or revealing very strong emotions.
5. actuated, effected, or determined by emotion rather than reason.
6. governed by emotion.

up⋅tight  [uhp-tahyt]
–adjective Slang.
1. tense, nervous, or jittery.
2. annoyed or angry.
3. stiffly conventional in manner or attitudes.

These two words encompass everything that I have been this past week. I can't really explain the reasoning, but everything about me has been emotional and uptight! As I write this I have tears streaming down my cheeks because I know that it's true. I know I'm not perfect, but gosh oh gee, this week I have been as close to EVIL STEP MOTHER as I have ever been! No, I'm not forcing all of my children to do all the chores and locking them in our tower while my hubby and I go to the ball! It's just that our "To Do" list is so enormous and it seems that the time frame we have given ourselves in which to do it is so limited. With preparation for school, for listing our house on the market, for Colin's first year in preschool .. with all of that on our schedule, it seems that we have lost time in which to just be a family! I have lost the ability to control my emotions, but instead they are breaking out like a floodgate's release! I know that this season of crazy emotions will pass, though I was recently reminded of the last time I felt this emotional and the reason for it. To my knowledge, that is not the case!

So, I've been keeping my distance from my blog because I feel like I cannot be an encouragement to others right now, and if I'm not encouraging with my words, why put them up here?! However, I am a real human (despite the fact that my husband thinks I came from another planet!), and I have many human moments. Today, this past week, all of this is one of them.

Please have mercy on me for my lack of blogging. This, too, shall pass :)